Friends I

He's a smart, cool and intelligent guy.Alireza is my best friend who currently live in Tabriz.I know him since high school , 7-8 years ago.

He like books ,especially philosophic novels.Besides he is such a cool guy, you can't not to enjoy his jokes.Every move he makes is pre-thought.I am sure that he won't do anything without a reason (unlike me ).Also, he has a talent in realizing art much more differently than other people.Of course everyone has it's own understanding of beauties.But Ali's , its like he always see the side of thing no one has ever noticed.

Friendship require trust, sacrifice and some sense of humor.Ali and I have all of above and I think that's the reason of our friendship.Sacrifice is required when two different kind of people meet.Like Ali and me.We are from two totally different cultures(even in same city there might be different cultures).He is from a family whit much better culture than mine.Anyway we managed to find something in common and became friends.It is fun, we had fun every time we get together.

As a final word , he is a special person you might met very rarely, and you'd never be regretful for knowing him and be his friend.It was him who showed me great joy of being Friends.

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He is more like me.We had fun lots of time with him too.He was also my classmate for 2 years.Amin.He might be the coolest guy on earth.Amin is a person when you need him he would present his help for you anyway he could.He is currently living in Dublin,Ireland.He went there 2 years ago, of course not exactly there.Its a long story he must tell.I remember the times we go out to pick up girls.There were days we got out everyday.He has greater aims than me and I think he has reached them, maybe not all but some part.

Its good thing be able of thinking great, and better is to reach them.Bloody well done Amin!

As a final word, hes cool, skeptic and funny.We shared the most cherish moments with him during more than 4 years.I am sure that there is no one like Amin around me, and its a grate chance to be his friend.

Why you should love beer and other alcohol drinks?!

Ten reasons to love beer and wisky:
1- They make you drunk
2- You can find them almost anywhere
3- They make impossible look easy and possible. Like jumping of a car speeding at 90 mph.
4- They have the same effect as sex if drinked properly!!!!
5- They are an excuse to smoke more
6- They are sold in almost anywhere
7- They are the best way to forget your harsh day!
8- When you are drunk you feel more free
9- They are the best solution for depression
10- Thay are the only thing that can cause to think"I don't need a girlfriend!"

You might wondering why did I put something worthless like this on my blog. Here is the answer "Cause I am drunk!" hehehehehehe...

Anybody wants a housemate?!

He kicked me out! My aunt's husband, told me that I have to find a place and move there! Well this is result of a chain my behaviours in their house. I didn't think my acts where so bad! Last night he told me that he needs my help this morning and I said "OK". But when this morning he asked for me and said "Wake up! I need your help, if you can't wake it's ok" , so I replied "I wanna sleep" and he left. Of course I was sleepy during this conversation. He did the same thing four times and at last give up! After I wake up at 15:00(!!) he was gone.He came back after 10 minutes , and told me that I have disappointed him and should find a place to move out! Maybe he's right but I haven't slept more than 4 hours in the past week and I was very tired. Anyway, anybody here wants a housemate?!!!

That's enough!

He always act as a teacher, but very idealist teacher. My aunt's husband, he's a former teacher and have studied literarture and philosophy . But as I told you before, living with another family is really hard. I have habits from my past which does not fit with him. Like everytime I come to home I'll check out the kichten to find something to eat. Today I do the same thing. It was rice- a popular food for iranians- and when it was dinner time he fixed us boiled chicken and potato. I asked him why he haven't prepared the rice? and he replied "Have you checken the kitchen?" I said "Yeah , there was rice ". Then eventually he talked about his son, Ataman, my cusin. He said "Ataman never searches for food around the house" and continued with praising his son's personality.When he said that I realized that he's advising me indirectly. He talked and talked , I was just listening. My aunt's husband Mohsen, is a very idealist person who have his own principals and trying to teach me them. All the thing he's saying are right and will help my personality get better. But I don't know why I hated him at that moment. He's a really cool person. But I am sick of getting teached. Maybe I haven't a good personality, but maybe I like it that way.
from time to time he insults my family. Despite I am not a fan of my dad and mom, but it makes me feel bad. Like he's insulting me. All I can do right now is to keep silent, cause I am staying at their house. I should find a place and move out of here. After all my personality only concerns me, even if it's the worst of all!

Dreams I

Despite I hate hot and humid weathers I have always dreamed of living in a little pacific island. Clear water, clear air ... clear consious. The thing is when the weather is hot I became aggressive and non-tolerant. I sweat very much and I hate that too, but I dream of living in that island all by myself. Maybe a few animals but I rather live lonely.
I love to be in another place, Alaska. Always cold and white. Alireza , an old friend of me, told me something that make sense. He said "When it's cold you can wear another coat to get warm, but when it's hot, despite you have taken off all of your clothes it's still hot. After all you can't take off your skin to get cooled,right?!" I think he's pretty right.
Another reason that makes me want Alaska as aplace to live ( not for visit or holiday ) is taken from "Insomnia" a movie directed by Christopher Noland. There is a part wher Al Pacino talking to maid in the hotel lobby. After a few words, Al Pacino ask where she is from, and she replies "There are two kind of people in Alaska, one who borned here and " . Well, I don't think I belong to somewhere on earth. But somehow I don't feel free.
A note about dreams, If you don't dream you're dead.

University?! pufffffffff!

Here I am again with something that for sure won't worth a penny. As I told you before, I cane to Istanbul to enter a university. But thing got changed. I realized whitout finacial support (sweet daddy money! ) it won't be working out. So I decided to enter a job at least to finance myself and maybe save some money for university.
About one month ago I talk to my old man, and he said that he can't help me with money. So I made a plan: Work at least a year to save money, and reputation. Afterward apply for a university in turkey. Till then I might have arranged myself a part-time job. But things changed again and ruined my plans.
I find out that I can apply for university in Germany. German universities are just cool, low tuition fees, high educational support and so on. Besides it's a fine place to study! So I made an other plan. To work till application start time, save money and send my application. Who knows maybe I get accepted! After a research I found out that I should know German. But there are programs offered in English too. So I have a shot. Maybe, just maybe, one day ...

Still same, still frustrated

Hiii again. I am at work now, but as you see I am not working :D. Well, where were we, since my last entry there haven't been a change. But I see the grim look in your face! You wanna know more about me,right? No! hmmm. Anyway I am gonna tell some parts of my story. As in movies "Everyone have a story".
I think my life compared to others was easy with most of thing. But from a physcological stand-point , I don't think it was easy at all. This depression started in me when I was 14-15. Like every teenage I was so confused (still am). Other kids were hangin around with girls (at least most of them) , but me, everytime standing in a corner listening to other kids "pick-up" stories. Back then I believed that I was handsome or something like that. But not even once I didn't get the chance to talk to a girl.Yeah blame those stupid girls, that's the best! Yeahhh,yeahhhhh I am obsessed with this problem. Now you now that I am a regular looser. If you didn't realize till now then you are a genius!
This is not a good excuse but, I think that was a really common problem among kids at that age in Iran. But I was very good in finding friends. Not girlfriends of course. I think I should be gay or homosexual. But I am straight as an arrow. Back to matter at hand, since then I became more and more anti-social. I was spending most of the day in my room. My best entertainment was playing video games on PlayStation. It was a very famous game console back late 90's . I was living in a fantasy world of videogames, which made me more anti-social. Anyway, I am not here to complain about my life, just something to read when you feel there is no one worst than you.
Ill be back!
See ya later

It comes and goes

My name is Farshad Dalirabdinia. It's been 4 months since I left my home. My comforty bed, my messed up room, my friends and my life in Tabriz. For those who might wonder where is Tabriz : Its one of Iran's major cities located in north-west of country . When I say like this it looks like I am feeling regret, but not even a bit. Cause I found a new life, here in Istanbul.
I am living with my aunt and her family. I got two cusins, Ataman and Arzy. Both are brilliant persons. To live with another family is really hard. Different behaviors happen time to time. But I should make my stand here. Once a friend of mine told me " If you can survive in Istanbul you can do the same everywhere". Well, I believe he's right.
Life in Istanbul is really expensive than Tabriz. So I found a job and working right now. In fact my plan was to enter a university in Turkey to find a better chances. But I couldn't stick to it. It's long stroy why I leave the idea of university and I don't have time to right a book! Anyway, as in movies "Change of plan". Main reason of this blog is to tell my story , so maybe I feel a little more relieved. I am planning to write everytime something new happened, but it's not always the way we want, right?!