Great news, worst time!

Finally, I get informed about my application in Istanbul University. I have granted admission for "Geophysics Engineering" program at Istanbul University.This means if I register I can study for 4 years and earn a Bachelor of Science degree in this field.Kind of nice, but I just have 3 days until registration deadline and I am confused about what should I do.If I register I have to leave my current job and be penny-less like always.My family doesn't seem to support me on this because they are in some mixed situation also.I need a professionals help now but no one is around.

I am beginning to love geophysics but I can't get in .Actually I can but for sure, I won't survive.The only way to survive in Istanbul is to have money.I know student life very good since I was student for 2 and a half year.Students can't afford living in a room with 300$ rent.They can't smoke good cigars also.Even if I enroll can't find enough money to live.These was the facts.But my heart is beating for university.I love university and student life.I don't feel ready for real life,-or I don't want to feel.In the both ways I love to go to university, especially a program different than Computer or IT based science.

Company's are paying good for programmers, it's a nice job to have a normal life.But I don't want that.I want to be able to live free.Geologists - from what I know - have a more active life than programmers.They don't have to hide in a basement and work for freaking 16 hours a day.Instead they go to field studies and do explorations outdoor. They might not get as much as programmers, but I am sure their salary would be enough to live.

I am kind of feeling a sympathy for earth sciences.After all it's the place we live on, having some sort of information won't harm.On the other hand it's a exciting field to study.Labs, field research, discovery camps and other high rhythm activities.Even if I am not so good at study but I am sure I'll figure out something.

Conclusion:"Help, in any way you can within 3 days!"

Ten things you should never do

Here are ten things you should never do:

1. Never say "Fat - ass" to a fat guy, results are are unpredictable!
2. Don't leave your home unless you have bigger plans, like moving to Bahamas
3. Don't ask a street bum "How you doing?", it's really obvious!
4. Never smoke right after you ate sweets, really harmful.Besides the taste of smoke will lost.
5. Never go to blind dates, results are unknown.
6. Never say "It's gonna be alright", unless you can reverse things you do to ruin his/her life.
7. Never compare cars to girls, these are two different entities which got nothing in common.
8. The only car deserves to be called "Jet" is Ferrari, others are just some tires and steel.So please stop calling your junk "Jet"!
9. Never brake up from your girlfriend unless you are sure she isn't going to destroy you and everything between.
10. Never say "Never", ever again.

Why you shouldn't LIVE with your aunt/uncle?!

Here ten reasons that show why you shouldn't live with other families except your Mom and Dad:

1. First days are nice, but afterward it will get weird.They will order you to do something, not ask politely
2. They always ask for much of your services around.Like cleaning rooms, washing dishes and so on ...
3. You won't feel comfortable cause you can't run around the house naked!
4. You have to accept what is given to you and never ask for much.In such cases don't ask for much, this one lethal point for your future stay.
5. You have to share everything with others even your memories.Sharing memories is fun but not with every one.
6. There is always something missing about your works, like why haven't you picked your sucks from carpet just for one day among 100 days of your stay.
7. They always complain about how you act except in case you are just like them.
8. Remember:One person has got nothing to do to the other one in any condition.This means you are like yourself, none of two persons around this planet are same.Not even twins-like evil twin and good twin-.
9. The love being felt about you can change to hate just in one second in these places.
10. There is just one person in this planet who really loves you, and she is your mom.So never ask for love from others.

I hope these tips come useful for you.But don't forget "Home is where you feel like home"

Weird stuff

Consider this:

"You have some of your stuff like your PC and clothes in your aunt's house.Somehow, the have used your PC as theirs and now that you want to take them you get this:Aww you gotta wait until we clear out our information from PC!. "

I have heard odd things but this tops all of them.How come I have been asked to wait for something that is mine-officially- and will be mine?! I mean what do they think I am gonna do with their stupid pictures ?! Publish them?!Print them.I have teached them how to use this tool and they have made money out of it, now this is how they thank.It's really bad to hear these from persons I -used to- like.Now that I think, I have saved them from paying thousand of dollars to learn "How to play cards on Windows".I have shared I all know about computers to let them be more smart.Now they are being smart-ass.

On the other hand, consider this:

"You have stayed at your aunt and her family, somehow, for 5 months.You have shared all the good and bad -mostly bad I guess- moments with them.You act like yourself so far.Like buying gifts and all, but from some point on you realize that there is no stop for this.I mean you are doing everything you can to keep them happy and still they want more."

I don't know how would you feel, but that pisses me off.

There is a old word I always believed but never did : "Whoever goes to judge by himself will considered 'True' in his eyes"

At last!

Guys , guys don't worry!I finally find a room and stayed at there last night.Just wanted to tell you :)

Still homeless, still same

I haven't find a room yet and I have been kicked out for 3 days now and staying at hotels.I don't know what to do right now, confused really.My work friends told me that I could stay at office temporarily until I find a place for myself.I don't know if I should accept that or not.By the way I am out of money, and won't get my salary .At least not soon.The company is out of money and they haven't paid anyone.But there is a difference be3tween me and other guys.They have homes and families but me , homeless , money-less and confused as hell.

If things continue like this I don't think this is a good company for me!Maybe I quit and go back to Iran and wait until university begins.I am really confused, I don't have enough money to afford two days in hotel.Maybe I stayed at office but it seems a little rude to me.It's a hard decision for me.Because I don't want to ruin my reputation here.On the other hand I need a place to stay 2 days.Maybe more...

I think the life is applying it's sense of humor again just to have something to laugh

I have lost it...

I have written a lot of memories in my notebook(regular notebook with pencil).I'll write them down when possible.Last night was my the end for me, I have been told to not to come back to my aunt's.I finally find a room. It has a bed and a cloth wardrobe. After all I can't stay outdoor!Now there is just one problem.The university applications began again yesterday and I let my cousin handle mine and his application.If everything goes right I can study "Geology" or "Geophysics or maybe "Software engineering".So I have another chance and this time I won't miss it.It doesn't matter where to study right? But Sweden, my dream country.Always cool.No matter how I'll treated there I want to live and study in Sweden.Maybe one out of a million of my dreams come true.I just hope everything goes right at this state, I hope...

Leaving the place I have been for more than 6 months and get related to it somehow, sounds terrible.But as I always say - and never do - I should be able to handle myself here, so I get used to it for further use!

I have to plan my future.I most do it clearly.I most be able to a picture of it so I can draw my path trough this messy hole called life.It's always about how you do things, not when!A good plan always do the trick.

Now this is real!

"The only good life has did for us is that there is no good at all"

Finally I got kicked out just as I thought.I have to leave the house today.Of course they didn't really kicked me out, just told me to leave.Now I am a house-less junk.I am gonna see some houses around Kabataş, see if I manage one for myself.If the worst happens, I'll stay at hotel until I find a place.

No one said it's gonna be easy.