Souls in peace

It has been a great journey for me being in Istanbul and all.After 10 months I am getting used to this city.I have a simple life here, a room, a job, a university and a very nice co-workers.It's a wonderful thing to reach and hold peace in your life.After 10 months of struggling around now I have become happy.

Sometime it really help to change a few thing in life.I began with location.

Frankly speaking I am happier than anytime.It's a good thing to be in peace with yourself.

New flat-mate, new skills?!

Seriously, which one you guys have a housemate who can make traditional Turkish dessert?Well mine does, despite he is a guy.The fact is this dessert was amazingly delicious!Well, my old housemates could play Ney, this new one makes great desserts :)

A different place, same old way.

When I first go to my old room back in Beşiktaş 4 months ago, I told myself : "Yeah, this feels like home" .But I was wrong.Can't judge things in first sight.But in that period of time I gain more life experience I found a new friendship which worth some pain.He is a Turkish boy studying at university.Ensar is a cool young, trying to live life as good as he can.Also he is very intelligent fellow.

This is the last day of my staying at old room where Ensar and his Friends having a party and invited me.As you see I wasn't drinking(!).If you pay attention you might as well see a picture of me for the first time on this blog.As you can see we (at least they) were having some fun.

Life is full of joy and happiness, not discovering that joy doesn't mean there isn't such thing.Just let your heart lead your eye.

So much to tell

There has been a huge gap between me and this blog.I've missed writing.Let's keep this short.

Part I:Why I wasn't around?

After I get informed that I have won(!) the right to enter university, I talked to my family to see what they think.My mom told me that I should register.Also I talked to Ali, my cousin in Canada.He also told me to register.So I tried to find money to register.I get my salary from work-too hard to get but worth it- then, I sold my cellphone to a nice price.There was also some leftovers of the money my family sent me.But there was another problem.I just got 3 days until deadline and in that 3 days god knows how I pulled a fascinating stunt and registered.After that I quit my job-as easy as getting it- and began university.

After this high-speed life I returned to my normal state i.e. do nothing but sleeping ! Any way I think that registering definitely worth my efforts.Although I can't say I am having fun at final exams but it's OK.

By the time I get my head back I was in a middle of non-sense again.I was broke no other source of income around.Also I had to go to a third country to get a student visa.I was busy in mind.Also my midterms were crushing my soul during that period.After 40 days of no money I found a part time job as a programmer as usual.I just have to work 3 days and the payment is quite good.So I get more busy.Some problems happened with housemates and I had to find another place.I found a new place a week ago and moved there.The rent is a little high for a student but the room is clean and peaceful, just what I need.

Working part time despite it's name is a time and mind consuming thing.I don't have time for my final exams now and already missed one of them.Chemistry to be frank.I am trying to get thing back on track again.So I am busy now.I think it wouldn't stop until you are dead."Get rich or dye trying"!.

I am planning to enter the university exam again.My current university is kinda far from where I stay.And very far from where I work.On the other hand I can't say I loved my field.Maybe it's because of people around or maybe it's just being a foreigner thing.As a conclusion I am trying to get back to my ex-field, IT.

Since I am young I want to make best of everything by anyway I could.It's a hard thing to do but it is always good to have problems in life.That's what makes us more grown.

Well, that's it for now, just let me say, being on your own have a nice taste :)

At last!

Guys , guys don't worry!I finally find a room and stayed at there last night.Just wanted to tell you :)

Still homeless, still same

I haven't find a room yet and I have been kicked out for 3 days now and staying at hotels.I don't know what to do right now, confused really.My work friends told me that I could stay at office temporarily until I find a place for myself.I don't know if I should accept that or not.By the way I am out of money, and won't get my salary .At least not soon.The company is out of money and they haven't paid anyone.But there is a difference be3tween me and other guys.They have homes and families but me , homeless , money-less and confused as hell.

If things continue like this I don't think this is a good company for me!Maybe I quit and go back to Iran and wait until university begins.I am really confused, I don't have enough money to afford two days in hotel.Maybe I stayed at office but it seems a little rude to me.It's a hard decision for me.Because I don't want to ruin my reputation here.On the other hand I need a place to stay 2 days.Maybe more...

I think the life is applying it's sense of humor again just to have something to laugh

I have lost it...

I have written a lot of memories in my notebook(regular notebook with pencil).I'll write them down when possible.Last night was my the end for me, I have been told to not to come back to my aunt's.I finally find a room. It has a bed and a cloth wardrobe. After all I can't stay outdoor!Now there is just one problem.The university applications began again yesterday and I let my cousin handle mine and his application.If everything goes right I can study "Geology" or "Geophysics or maybe "Software engineering".So I have another chance and this time I won't miss it.It doesn't matter where to study right? But Sweden, my dream country.Always cool.No matter how I'll treated there I want to live and study in Sweden.Maybe one out of a million of my dreams come true.I just hope everything goes right at this state, I hope...

Leaving the place I have been for more than 6 months and get related to it somehow, sounds terrible.But as I always say - and never do - I should be able to handle myself here, so I get used to it for further use!

I have to plan my future.I most do it clearly.I most be able to a picture of it so I can draw my path trough this messy hole called life.It's always about how you do things, not when!A good plan always do the trick.